LQQK! It's only been .....

A week or so since I last posted!  Allie has been sick since Monday and now Emma is sick.  I thought I was going to get it but I think I may have been strong enough to resist.  Work is so frustrating lately ... not quite sure what it is but I am really feeling the pressure.  Dr. Protaziuk swears I'm going to get a pay raise but Pat is fighting it.  She refuses to pay me to bill for the walk-in-clinic which is annoying because everyone else who works it gets paid for it.  She even said on the phone today that I had to make sure ALL the walk-in-clinic posting gets done before the end of our fiscal year which is June 30th.  I swear I should come in on a Sunday night, punch in, then finish the billing by getting paid for it.  She would squawk like a tortured bird if I did that yet it's okay for the CMAs to get 8 hours of OT to be there.  THEN ... get this ... Dr. P found out that the MAs on the weekend are not copying the visit notes for OUR patients and leaving them where we could scan them into the patient's chart so she told Sharon that WE had to do it.  Huh?  How is that OUR job?  I don't even get paid to bill for the WIC and she wants us to go through the alphabet file and find OUR patients and copy the notes?  WTF?  Honestly I don't think so.  Those lazy MAs should do it on the weekends.  It's bad enough they don't add the insurances when they are supposed to or even add a PATIENT ... and they are GETTING PAID to do it.  I've about had it with this job .... hopefully when the economy starts improving I might be able to get a better one.  For now I won't rock the boat too much.  At least until it's sure I get this fucking house.  I'm still not dead sure I'm getting it, isn't that sad?  I haven't heard a word from the mortgage people -- they did say it would get quiet but I thought we would know something concrete by now.  It will be a very, very sad thing to watch that house go up and then see someone else moving into it.  

I don't really want to think about it ... I'll start to cry if I do and right at the moment I'm emotionally fragile.  Pathetic I know but it's the state I'm in.  

I think I'm just going to go to bed.

G'night.

Another month has gone by ....

Well another month has gone by and there has been very little drama which makes my heart feel lighter! How sad is that? Well nevermind .... I made an attempt to buy my own house and had it not been for me co-signing on Caryn's new car I would have been successful. I am in awe at the fact that my credit score has crawled OUT of the gutter and into an acceptable range! I had to re-sign the contracts and re-apply for the loan with Mike on it as a co-signer ... okay fine if it makes it so we have a house and don't have to move again that rawks but .. I don't like giving him so much power because he can be a bear with it; don't forget constantly reminding me "it's my house too" blah blah blah .... in the end it won't matter; we won't have to move again, baby boy can continue going to Minooka school and everyone will be happy .... ??? Won't they?

My relationship with Kyler is about the same. He comes over and hangs with me a little then we fuck. Sounds about right. He came over Memorial Day and we watched True Grit together. I like just being around him, sometimes we hold hands, sometimes we cuddle ... either way I need it - maybe he does too but it feels right. Don't know if he'll ever come back but only time will tell.

So I'm about to get my ass chewed out today at work; my boss is coming for an office meeting but we had an issue with a patient last week and I forgot to put a message into the computer so the nurse could call said patient and the whole thing escalated. I'm dreading today.

I'm so tired; can I go back to bed?